Exciting news, I'm writing episode 321 of Private Practice!
Stressful news, it's due Monday. So, this is going to be short (and late, since today is Thursday).
Went to an ego reducing yoga class the other day. It was terrible. I was enjoying my ego the size it was, but, now it's smaller.
I used to be able to do this pose...
Ten years ago, I worked everyday for a year to be able to do it. It's part of the sun salutation and is done many, many times in a yoga class.
The first time I did it my yoga teacher, Suzanne and I were ecstatic. I'd worked so hard so consistently and she had witnessed it so she could taste my victory.
But, I let it go and now I'm a beginner again.
After class, sitting cross legged on the floor, looking at myself in the mirror with my belly before me, I look like a Buddha statue.
Trust me, I don't often compare myself with deity and if I had to pick a religious icon to look like, I'm not sure fat Buddha would be at the top of my list. But, in this moment, I took it as a sign that I would be able to find the Zen place deep within which will allow me to do the work it will take to become lighter and stronger and chaturanga dandasana able... again.
Now, I must work on my script.